alot of letters

Man I have to take a shit... But I'm not in a position where I can. I'm probably 40 min away from home and I can't leave until 6pm... Gotta hold it until then

Well I don't think I've posted on here since building my PC. Well in early 2018 I bought a PC my friend j

Jared (from middle school) built for his daughter from him and started back on my journey of becoming more pc focused on gaming which really started to gain more traction in 2013 when I bought my laptop for video editing which got stolen. Even though I've had a steam account since 2007 when I got into counterstrike and half life, but my original pc from 2003 couldn't handle most games from around the 360 era. Well anyway in 2019 I took the insides of that build and put them in a new case and upgraded my gpu, then in 2020 I changed out everything but the gpu and put those parts Into a case for my wife which now is my son's pc and I'll build her a new build maybe next year since she's rather get a series x Xbox to game on. 

Well that said I have bought my first desk ever, every time I've had a pc had all been a hand me down even back at my parents I had a school pc desk. It's nice and I like it. I've been playing a game called valheim which is an open world survival game based around Norse mythology, I adore that game. I never thought I'd like a survival game because who wants a game where you have to remember to eat... Lol well the survival elements aren't as hardcore as sat ark.. so that's good they are just there enough to make things like food mean something. If you die yes your stuff drops where you were and if you were far from your spawn (which is your last bed) then it could be tricky getti g your armor and weapons back. But you cannot die from not eating you are simply weaker and slower, your health matches to your food intake so if you haven't ate your health is 25 percent. You can eat 3 different foods at once an easy one starting is cooked meat, grilled necktail, and a berry. And that will boost your health and stamina up enough to survive the wilds with a good set of leather armor. And armor is crafted, and each biome is gated by a boss, you can go into the next biome but you will die and also have no reason to be there. For example if you go into the black forest without a pickaxe then you can't mine ore... And the first pickaxe is is crafted fro. Hard antlers that come from first boss. I've put alot hours in solo and on my brothers server which you can take your character around to other worlds and keep your inventory but I don't do that I make new character if I'm going to another world (except for when playing my son's world)

Well there I did it I typed made a lengthy post. First one in so long.

PS I got a chance to shit before finishing this post!

hindsight

Dude, a lot has happens in our world since 2018, who ever is reading this doesn't need reminding of the pandemic, social unrest, and completely divided country. My last post was me feeling sad over losing my family's lake house... Dude that sounds so fucking pretentious and small after such a hard year and a half. Lost a job, but got a new one. Spring cleaning and making for new memories.

Summer of disappointment

If you know me, yiu know that I love our lake trips. Since my family after moving out of my parents has been lower middle class upper poor... going to the lake with at my uncle's lake house is our chance to live and vacation outside of our means. It was always a reminder of childhood when everything was easy and we all lived in the same house and I loved including my wife and kids in that since I couldn't provide that for them otherwise. Well that may he coming to an end. As the last post was before our 2018 lake trip and I haven't posted in nearly 2 months I thought I'd relay that here. There was a kid i played with named Timothy I didn't really see him once I entered high school much and didn't know why he never came around or went to the lake when we weren't there. Well it's because he is gay, I just found out he was this year and honestly I wasn't surprised, he was always into things like art and plays and stuff and not the manliest kids so it's what it is. But my uncle and his grandfather wasn't so accepting as me and after his grandfather died he came when everyone was there with his partner and my uncle lost his shit and is now most likely selling the lake house... It's so fucked and I don't know how to feel. Also I need better pay and everywhere I look for bettering myself and my family i just come to a dead in and I'm losing steam. Time for some bright eyes and some beer.

Back on the grid

Well the internet is back and that feels good. It has been so long since I've had to go without a utility for s couple of weeks I mean at least it was one that isn't a living necessity but still it made it hard on the kids and the games these days even single player games need internet to some extent to work properly. I haven't went back in me2 yet since I did do my steam sale game thing so I was trying some of those out, I tried endless space which is kinda a space opera colonization game which seems relaxing and fun. I got 2 360 era games I never finished that I rented way back when which is lost planet and vanquish (vanquish plays great on pc)

Today we are also getting our plumbing redone since after max and colleen were here on memorial day our toilets and drains have been acting up. We had the septic tank drained and the plumbing worked on and nothing worked so now they are completely redoing it so maybe now our toilets will flush properly!

Tonight is podcast night so finally I can do it on the pc instead of the phone and we have major Linux joining us. Should be a good time. I still need to do my p4g charity streams for June but I'm thinking I'll just do June and July in july... I mean we had alot of stuff going on since my last one...in the last episode i couldn't even have the mic on for coughing then was the funeral and then we didn't have internet... So June has been one busy clusterfuck.

One more day

Uh I typed a book and then it went away... I'll try again in a few... fingers are tired

Okay, one more day until we get internet, it's been harder than I thought.  It will be nice to get back to mass effect 2 and 3 with all the dlc since I need internet to verify the dlc even though it's installed but I launched the gsme after I bought and installed the dlc but after the internet was out. I also have some games in mind to get during the steam sale as well so that should be fun but after all the bills are paid

Well max and I went to see yob and bell witch last night with Netherlands which was very fun. I had my first sour beer which I liked alot. It was high wire goze out of Asheville. I downloaded an app called bands in town so I can keep better track of bands we want to see live so we can make our resolution to see more local shows most doom metal since it's so chill yet still heavy. We are too old to be moshing and stage diving... That's why I turned down the knocked loose and terror show even though u do wanna see converge again sometime. Next show we wanna see would be deafheaven with drab majesty and uniform... So shoegaze/black metal with dreamy new wave and noise rock. Hell yeah

But this weekend is the family lake trip so that should be good to get away for a bit and enjoy some lake water off the grid

Injection

I think I should keep the blogs separate. And keep my brand up even if I change the brand name and look I still need to keep it going and focus on more life of life type posts here because I am sure once I dismantle a.h. I would miss having s brand outside of YouTube even if I keep the posts.

Not having internet still sucks but I get paid in less than a week so let's do this! Haha I just wanna play my mass effect 2 and 3 dlc but for now I'll just play borderlands on steam since steam doesn't have this online hand holding issues if I have bought and installed stuff. I could see if it's am online gsme but it's a strictly single player game that came out 9 years ago. But oh well.

I got to take my dad to get his injection today which I have had to for the past year now which sucks because I have to leave work early but maybe he'll buy me some vape juice haha

Xanga out

Identity

I'm not really sure what I want to do with the awakenedheathen blog. I'm starting to like this one how I'm using my old xanga handle and just kinda talking about nothing rather than trying to start a brand. I wanted my blog to be a hub for everything I did but the few peiple that watch my videos or follow me on Twitter never went to the blog rather than just find me on YouTube or whatever so what's the point really... so maybe I should archive those posts on my archive blog on WordPress and then just continue to do my pre internet nostalgia here. Not sure what I want to do. Because if I post here I don't really want to post there and nothing is read there anyway like I said and anything really related to my YouTube is so organized through playlists and live events. I probably should archive all posts prior to later 2016 but import the ones on there after I made this one here so if things are sorta repeated then that's why. Plus that would be cool since I did a pretty long post over there explaining my absence of blogging in 2017. Man I ramble about nothing... but that's how pre internet blogs are