Hendersonville 2.5 years later

Visiting the in-law for the first time in forever. Today is Aidens 13th birthday, it's weird to think that I'm the father of a teenager... Things have changed in the family, but Devin is still cool. I wasn't even going to mention that until I was sitting listening to right wing ranting. But anyway, I just stay out of that stuff and just talk video games and listen to hardcore and doom metal. Just trying to be a chill dude is always my goal in life. Watching Kayleigh play resident evil village right now, she is jumping at every sound lol, Kaleigh is bean btw and that's not dead naming sense beam Is nickname she is okay with. Support trans rights

two NPR podcast episodes later...

I finally got gas today, wrapped around two different roads into the Sheetz. One episode got me all heated on how hateful and echo chamber inducing it was, and I thought maybe I'm not as liberal as I thought.... Until I checked the ivisibilia reddit and saw that 99% of NPR listeners hated the episode and saw it the same as I, a discorse killing, hateful echo chamber. We need discorse, true in person off social media discorse and we need listeners, not bullies to get passed this hell we are in.

Everything is fucked

It's happening again, more apocalyptic behavior. People hoarding the gas, Russian hackers? Hardcore shows happening in a pandemic, cops using force against said hardcore shows. What is happening? I used to think everything changes but ALOT remains the same. Now it's like everything changes and nothing remains. This whole blogs purpose is holding on to things from the past, xanga, hillsborough street, and early in amber and I's relationship... 2006 ruined the world.

an entire generation gone

I lost my last grandparent the other day. The funeral for grandma Clifton was yesterday. So all my grandparents are gone, even the step ones... I don't know how I feel about losing an entire generation... 

alot of letters

Man I have to take a shit... But I'm not in a position where I can. I'm probably 40 min away from home and I can't leave until 6pm... Gotta hold it until then

Well I don't think I've posted on here since building my PC. Well in early 2018 I bought a PC my friend j

Jared (from middle school) built for his daughter from him and started back on my journey of becoming more pc focused on gaming which really started to gain more traction in 2013 when I bought my laptop for video editing which got stolen. Even though I've had a steam account since 2007 when I got into counterstrike and half life, but my original pc from 2003 couldn't handle most games from around the 360 era. Well anyway in 2019 I took the insides of that build and put them in a new case and upgraded my gpu, then in 2020 I changed out everything but the gpu and put those parts Into a case for my wife which now is my son's pc and I'll build her a new build maybe next year since she's rather get a series x Xbox to game on. 

Well that said I have bought my first desk ever, every time I've had a pc had all been a hand me down even back at my parents I had a school pc desk. It's nice and I like it. I've been playing a game called valheim which is an open world survival game based around Norse mythology, I adore that game. I never thought I'd like a survival game because who wants a game where you have to remember to eat... Lol well the survival elements aren't as hardcore as sat ark.. so that's good they are just there enough to make things like food mean something. If you die yes your stuff drops where you were and if you were far from your spawn (which is your last bed) then it could be tricky getti g your armor and weapons back. But you cannot die from not eating you are simply weaker and slower, your health matches to your food intake so if you haven't ate your health is 25 percent. You can eat 3 different foods at once an easy one starting is cooked meat, grilled necktail, and a berry. And that will boost your health and stamina up enough to survive the wilds with a good set of leather armor. And armor is crafted, and each biome is gated by a boss, you can go into the next biome but you will die and also have no reason to be there. For example if you go into the black forest without a pickaxe then you can't mine ore... And the first pickaxe is is crafted fro. Hard antlers that come from first boss. I've put alot hours in solo and on my brothers server which you can take your character around to other worlds and keep your inventory but I don't do that I make new character if I'm going to another world (except for when playing my son's world)

Well there I did it I typed made a lengthy post. First one in so long.

PS I got a chance to shit before finishing this post!

hindsight

Dude, a lot has happens in our world since 2018, who ever is reading this doesn't need reminding of the pandemic, social unrest, and completely divided country. My last post was me feeling sad over losing my family's lake house... Dude that sounds so fucking pretentious and small after such a hard year and a half. Lost a job, but got a new one. Spring cleaning and making for new memories.

Summer of disappointment

If you know me, yiu know that I love our lake trips. Since my family after moving out of my parents has been lower middle class upper poor... going to the lake with at my uncle's lake house is our chance to live and vacation outside of our means. It was always a reminder of childhood when everything was easy and we all lived in the same house and I loved including my wife and kids in that since I couldn't provide that for them otherwise. Well that may he coming to an end. As the last post was before our 2018 lake trip and I haven't posted in nearly 2 months I thought I'd relay that here. There was a kid i played with named Timothy I didn't really see him once I entered high school much and didn't know why he never came around or went to the lake when we weren't there. Well it's because he is gay, I just found out he was this year and honestly I wasn't surprised, he was always into things like art and plays and stuff and not the manliest kids so it's what it is. But my uncle and his grandfather wasn't so accepting as me and after his grandfather died he came when everyone was there with his partner and my uncle lost his shit and is now most likely selling the lake house... It's so fucked and I don't know how to feel. Also I need better pay and everywhere I look for bettering myself and my family i just come to a dead in and I'm losing steam. Time for some bright eyes and some beer.