1999

Well summer is almost over and I'm ready for the fall. I can go on hikes without it being nearly 100 degrees, and smell the crisp air. Also we can play some spooky games and watch some spooky shows and movies. I've been listening to alot of nu metal lately reminds me of a simple time when I used to go to camp. I'd normally buy a couple of CDs while on the way as tradition. Some of the memorable ones are Limp Bizkit, Korn, Slipknot, Dillinger escape plan(not NuMetal) among others. And I made some amazing friends even though I have no contact with them at all or well they are these days. 20 years can change a person. But since I'm listening to limp bizkit on walks.. not so much lol. I watched the Woodstock 99 documentary in HBO while I was in the late 90s mood. That was one fucked up festival... I mean the music and the pit and all that was everything to me max and Adrian.... Seeing what went on behind the spectacle was like ripping off a bandaid. That happened right in the glory days of camp. Wild. I do need to find the camp pictures and maybe some of the unedited videos I never posted. I did one called jack cragmont. I'll post that here

Summer of difficulty

Well to start off, we didn't do the foo fighters thing on the 4th since we were nervous if we would give noro virus to max and Colleen since Riley was sick for a good while. We got better of course. 

A few weeks ago I got stranded on the side of the road with my client and I had another staff come pick him up.  My parents picked me up and we had the car towed to Matthews motors. They fixed the battery cable but that only fixed half of the problem. The main problem was the alternator, which I assumed was the problem since my car acted possessed by a ghost. Which once that was fixed my radio nob is now working much better so maybe my alternator was going out for a while. Well now I have an exhaust or catalytic converter problem. I'll get that fixed later. 

Well at the end of the month I took Aiden to galaxycon and he loved it! I wish I didn't spend so much there but it was worth it. This past paycheck wasn't the greatest since I was low on hours do too car problems and appts. 

This month has been all guests August for my podcast Scarcasm. Which has been fun I also been completing games which is a good thing! 

Also check out this shot of the storm from the other day!

father's day puke

Well father's day did not go the way I planned. First of all I came home on Saturday and Aiden goy home from his friends house and threw up all over the kitchen floor as I was getting things ready for our halo night. Before that It had already had a wrench threw in because he uninstalled halo master chief collection from the Xbox and his mom's PC. So he went to bed yo rest and I played the halo night with my friends without him hoping he would be better the next day (father's day proper) and he wasn't. That day Riley was sleepy most of the day. It was kinda nice the whole house was sleeping but I kinda wanted to spend time. 

Well Monday rolled around and I started to feel sluggish and amber as well so I went home early from work and then around bed time Riley started to puke and then while cleaning him up I really started to get nauseous so I went to lay down and I threw up until 10pm or so and took off work the next day rested, and threw up some more around noon. And I felt somewhat better on Wednesday but very weak so I just took it easy and spent time with Riley and he went to sleep on the couch while I was playing some mass effect on the Xbox. I went back to work Thursday and Friday but Riley was still heavy diarrhea so we took him you the doctor on Saturday and we were there all day. Then on Monday my mom took amber and Riley back to the hospital to have hin checked again and the did a stool sample and it turns out we all had norovirus. Fun times

Now it's Thursday again and I had my second shot and I'm a bit sluggish today but not too much that I need to leave from work. But on Saturday we are going to try our best to hang with Max and Colleen in Clayton for a fourth of July event with a foo fighters cover band lol.

Here is a playlist big the father's day game night

Father's day 2021

it's almost father's day

I remember my first father's day. Aiden was only a few weeks old, I bought myself two DVDs, the oil mongul western film, there will be blood and the Bob Dylan live at newport folk festival documentary. I can't remember specifically what I got for father's day after that other than just relaxing that weekend. But this weekend I have a game night planned of Halo! Doing it with my dad friends and Aiden. This will be my 14th father's day with Aiden being 13 years old. 

inoculation

Well my client went out of town and I decided to take a 3 day weekend and get vaccinated from covid-19. So I got the shot on Thursday and it wasn't so bad but then later that night my arm was pretty sore but I held it together, and Friday I was very tired and sore all over but I'm all good today. Today we went over to my parents and Katie and Larkin were there. We went swimming and Riley hated it. When we got back home I turned in Doug and Riley fell asleep watching it with me.

Hendersonville 2.5 years later

Visiting the in-law for the first time in forever. Today is Aidens 13th birthday, it's weird to think that I'm the father of a teenager... Things have changed in the family, but Devin is still cool. I wasn't even going to mention that until I was sitting listening to right wing ranting. But anyway, I just stay out of that stuff and just talk video games and listen to hardcore and doom metal. Just trying to be a chill dude is always my goal in life. Watching Kayleigh play resident evil village right now, she is jumping at every sound lol, Kaleigh is bean btw and that's not dead naming sense beam Is nickname she is okay with. Support trans rights

two NPR podcast episodes later...

I finally got gas today, wrapped around two different roads into the Sheetz. One episode got me all heated on how hateful and echo chamber inducing it was, and I thought maybe I'm not as liberal as I thought.... Until I checked the ivisibilia reddit and saw that 99% of NPR listeners hated the episode and saw it the same as I, a discorse killing, hateful echo chamber. We need discorse, true in person off social media discorse and we need listeners, not bullies to get passed this hell we are in.

Everything is fucked

It's happening again, more apocalyptic behavior. People hoarding the gas, Russian hackers? Hardcore shows happening in a pandemic, cops using force against said hardcore shows. What is happening? I used to think everything changes but ALOT remains the same. Now it's like everything changes and nothing remains. This whole blogs purpose is holding on to things from the past, xanga, hillsborough street, and early in amber and I's relationship... 2006 ruined the world.

an entire generation gone

I lost my last grandparent the other day. The funeral for grandma Clifton was yesterday. So all my grandparents are gone, even the step ones... I don't know how I feel about losing an entire generation... 

alot of letters

Man I have to take a shit... But I'm not in a position where I can. I'm probably 40 min away from home and I can't leave until 6pm... Gotta hold it until then

Well I don't think I've posted on here since building my PC. Well in early 2018 I bought a PC my friend j

Jared (from middle school) built for his daughter from him and started back on my journey of becoming more pc focused on gaming which really started to gain more traction in 2013 when I bought my laptop for video editing which got stolen. Even though I've had a steam account since 2007 when I got into counterstrike and half life, but my original pc from 2003 couldn't handle most games from around the 360 era. Well anyway in 2019 I took the insides of that build and put them in a new case and upgraded my gpu, then in 2020 I changed out everything but the gpu and put those parts Into a case for my wife which now is my son's pc and I'll build her a new build maybe next year since she's rather get a series x Xbox to game on. 

Well that said I have bought my first desk ever, every time I've had a pc had all been a hand me down even back at my parents I had a school pc desk. It's nice and I like it. I've been playing a game called valheim which is an open world survival game based around Norse mythology, I adore that game. I never thought I'd like a survival game because who wants a game where you have to remember to eat... Lol well the survival elements aren't as hardcore as sat ark.. so that's good they are just there enough to make things like food mean something. If you die yes your stuff drops where you were and if you were far from your spawn (which is your last bed) then it could be tricky getti g your armor and weapons back. But you cannot die from not eating you are simply weaker and slower, your health matches to your food intake so if you haven't ate your health is 25 percent. You can eat 3 different foods at once an easy one starting is cooked meat, grilled necktail, and a berry. And that will boost your health and stamina up enough to survive the wilds with a good set of leather armor. And armor is crafted, and each biome is gated by a boss, you can go into the next biome but you will die and also have no reason to be there. For example if you go into the black forest without a pickaxe then you can't mine ore... And the first pickaxe is is crafted fro. Hard antlers that come from first boss. I've put alot hours in solo and on my brothers server which you can take your character around to other worlds and keep your inventory but I don't do that I make new character if I'm going to another world (except for when playing my son's world)

Well there I did it I typed made a lengthy post. First one in so long.

PS I got a chance to shit before finishing this post!

hindsight

Dude, a lot has happens in our world since 2018, who ever is reading this doesn't need reminding of the pandemic, social unrest, and completely divided country. My last post was me feeling sad over losing my family's lake house... Dude that sounds so fucking pretentious and small after such a hard year and a half. Lost a job, but got a new one. Spring cleaning and making for new memories.

Summer of disappointment

If you know me, yiu know that I love our lake trips. Since my family after moving out of my parents has been lower middle class upper poor... going to the lake with at my uncle's lake house is our chance to live and vacation outside of our means. It was always a reminder of childhood when everything was easy and we all lived in the same house and I loved including my wife and kids in that since I couldn't provide that for them otherwise. Well that may he coming to an end. As the last post was before our 2018 lake trip and I haven't posted in nearly 2 months I thought I'd relay that here. There was a kid i played with named Timothy I didn't really see him once I entered high school much and didn't know why he never came around or went to the lake when we weren't there. Well it's because he is gay, I just found out he was this year and honestly I wasn't surprised, he was always into things like art and plays and stuff and not the manliest kids so it's what it is. But my uncle and his grandfather wasn't so accepting as me and after his grandfather died he came when everyone was there with his partner and my uncle lost his shit and is now most likely selling the lake house... It's so fucked and I don't know how to feel. Also I need better pay and everywhere I look for bettering myself and my family i just come to a dead in and I'm losing steam. Time for some bright eyes and some beer.

Back on the grid

Well the internet is back and that feels good. It has been so long since I've had to go without a utility for s couple of weeks I mean at least it was one that isn't a living necessity but still it made it hard on the kids and the games these days even single player games need internet to some extent to work properly. I haven't went back in me2 yet since I did do my steam sale game thing so I was trying some of those out, I tried endless space which is kinda a space opera colonization game which seems relaxing and fun. I got 2 360 era games I never finished that I rented way back when which is lost planet and vanquish (vanquish plays great on pc)

Today we are also getting our plumbing redone since after max and colleen were here on memorial day our toilets and drains have been acting up. We had the septic tank drained and the plumbing worked on and nothing worked so now they are completely redoing it so maybe now our toilets will flush properly!

Tonight is podcast night so finally I can do it on the pc instead of the phone and we have major Linux joining us. Should be a good time. I still need to do my p4g charity streams for June but I'm thinking I'll just do June and July in july... I mean we had alot of stuff going on since my last one...in the last episode i couldn't even have the mic on for coughing then was the funeral and then we didn't have internet... So June has been one busy clusterfuck.

One more day

Uh I typed a book and then it went away... I'll try again in a few... fingers are tired

Okay, one more day until we get internet, it's been harder than I thought.  It will be nice to get back to mass effect 2 and 3 with all the dlc since I need internet to verify the dlc even though it's installed but I launched the gsme after I bought and installed the dlc but after the internet was out. I also have some games in mind to get during the steam sale as well so that should be fun but after all the bills are paid

Well max and I went to see yob and bell witch last night with Netherlands which was very fun. I had my first sour beer which I liked alot. It was high wire goze out of Asheville. I downloaded an app called bands in town so I can keep better track of bands we want to see live so we can make our resolution to see more local shows most doom metal since it's so chill yet still heavy. We are too old to be moshing and stage diving... That's why I turned down the knocked loose and terror show even though u do wanna see converge again sometime. Next show we wanna see would be deafheaven with drab majesty and uniform... So shoegaze/black metal with dreamy new wave and noise rock. Hell yeah

But this weekend is the family lake trip so that should be good to get away for a bit and enjoy some lake water off the grid

Injection

I think I should keep the blogs separate. And keep my brand up even if I change the brand name and look I still need to keep it going and focus on more life of life type posts here because I am sure once I dismantle a.h. I would miss having s brand outside of YouTube even if I keep the posts.

Not having internet still sucks but I get paid in less than a week so let's do this! Haha I just wanna play my mass effect 2 and 3 dlc but for now I'll just play borderlands on steam since steam doesn't have this online hand holding issues if I have bought and installed stuff. I could see if it's am online gsme but it's a strictly single player game that came out 9 years ago. But oh well.

I got to take my dad to get his injection today which I have had to for the past year now which sucks because I have to leave work early but maybe he'll buy me some vape juice haha

Xanga out

Identity

I'm not really sure what I want to do with the awakenedheathen blog. I'm starting to like this one how I'm using my old xanga handle and just kinda talking about nothing rather than trying to start a brand. I wanted my blog to be a hub for everything I did but the few peiple that watch my videos or follow me on Twitter never went to the blog rather than just find me on YouTube or whatever so what's the point really... so maybe I should archive those posts on my archive blog on WordPress and then just continue to do my pre internet nostalgia here. Not sure what I want to do. Because if I post here I don't really want to post there and nothing is read there anyway like I said and anything really related to my YouTube is so organized through playlists and live events. I probably should archive all posts prior to later 2016 but import the ones on there after I made this one here so if things are sorta repeated then that's why. Plus that would be cool since I did a pretty long post over there explaining my absence of blogging in 2017. Man I ramble about nothing... but that's how pre internet blogs are

No net

Why do I keep having to make posts like this year after year that we had to push the internet bill back... I'd hope after 10 to 15 years of blogging that id be at a point if not having to sacrifice bills like internet and Xbox gold. I guess I do make alot more money now but I do have a car payment now and higher insurance and higher rent. I should be done paying off my car next year though since I've had it 5 years now and it's a 6 year loan and after that my insurance will go down so hopefully then we will have more disposable income. Well of course I'll have like 350 more a month so that should be amazing. I'll pay the internet bill next Wednesday so until then I'll have to reschedule my persona 4 streams and the Alan Wake stream with Aiden which sucks but we'll manage because we have plenty of dvds and blurays as well as single player games. In fact I've been replaying the mass effect trilogy so I'm covered

Back to normal

Back at work after the funeral and memorial day. The service was good and the viewing had alot of family coming together. I'm going to miss grandma and pa Langdon alot, they meant alot to me going up.

Max and colleen came over on memorial day and that was a nice change of pace. I made some good fall-off-the-bone ribs with a custom mix of sauces and a beee that came out really well. I did corn on the cob grilled in aluminum foil on my new oven grill plate and that came out amazing. Max had an incident with with his his esophagus and didn't get to eat much or drink any beer, I felt bad for him.

Podcast guests

Well mike and I did and episode of scarcasm last night that I almost forgot about haha. I started playing some va11-hal-a and Amber said "you getting ready to podcast? And I was like oh shit that's right it is a bit past 9 haha. So we got that going and Amber wanted to join in so she was a guest for the night and the convo for the episode turned into to sex talk LOL. It was a good time though it would be cool to have her on the podcast more often though.

Well the main reason I forgot is because they were at my dad's house for a bit after I got off work and I met them there and we hung out there for a bit. Aiden ate dinner there..oh and Aiden is 10 years old now! Crazy huh he had a birthday party at lacocina the Mexican restaurant and also we had visited hendersonville earlier in the month and he had a party there too with the kids as well as a couple of gaming tournaments for fun.

And a year passes

Well i always do this. Think I'm going to blog about personal stuff like how we used to via fangs then i completely forget about it. The biggest reason is that my laptop got stolen last year and this year I finally got me a new pc (that's 10 times better than my laptop) and the blogger app is pretty limited and likes to freeze up if uploading pics and stuff. I also got really into persona even more than before with since I finally finished p4g and getting persona 5. So I thought I'd talk a bit. Well sad news that grandma Langdon died yesterday So we got a funeral to plan and all. She was pretty sick so she won't have to live in that nursing home anymore. She died almost 6 years after pa Langdon died in 2012. Anber got pregnant with our new son Riley who was born November 13th of last year and that has been amazing. Also we moved into a new place which we love. We moved last year to a temporary house after the robbery that we lost our laptop Xbox one and other electronics. So now we are finally settled and have most of the things replaced so that's good. Stay good people. Xanga forever!